MerDeka !

when over to pyramid today last minute plan. when there with Larissa & Ignatius then meet up with Joshua , his guy friend do not know the name and Nicol from USJ12. okay ! then split up with them and Larissa and me when to do some shopping stuff.bag hunting but FAIL couldnt get any nice ones. watched IMAGINE THAT ! nice movie ! seriously... headed over to kim gary to makan . i had my pork chop with cheese baked rice ! nom nom nom . . . . !! everyone is staying for the countdown thing but un fortunately im not. wont be going to any countdown without him. i'll wait for him no matter how long it takes ( a life time ) ? nahh ! ! !

outfit of the day !

topshop !

heLLo !

bored man !

Michael Buble & Nelly Furtado - Quando Quando Quando.

( recommended song )

Tell me when will you be mine

Tell me quando quando quando

We can share a love divine

Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me

Tell me quando quando quando

You mean happiness to me

Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when

Oh darling tell me when

Oh come on tell me when

Yea tell me when

sentences of the day !

IM LOYAL . . . .

me LOVE !

love your style , feel confident in what you wear. never back off of your own fashion taste.just wear whatever you feel comfortable in.

FASHION is really important for every each girls and boys.

current OBSESSION !

apparel :

TOPSHOP , Miss Selfridge , Forever21 , MANGO.

heels :

ALDO , Salvatore Ferragamo , Yves Saint Laurent , Christian Louboutin , JimmyChoo , Givenchy.

bags :

PRADA , Gucci , Louis Vouitton , Dior , Fendi , Marc Jacobs , Yves Saint Laurent.

fragrance :

Ralph Lauren notorious, Flora by Gucci , Calvin Klein , Lancome magnifique , Dolce & Gabbana.

face/eyes :

Anna Sui , MAC , Shu Uemura , Bobbi Brown , Chanel.

magazines :

VOGUE , CLEO !

{ suits and boots are back. }

taken from VOGUE magazines ( me love so much ) :

versace !

Christian Siriano ( winner of project runway ) !

his design. are just so fabulous.

every couple have their routines.

i got my own same ol' routine.

my patience are growing.waiting for someone is isnt that easy as what you think but its a challenge.

I TOOK THAT CHALLENGE.

I KNOW AND IM SURE. ITS MUST BE HIM !

trying too hard !

SUDDEN CRAVES ! = COLOUR PENCILS !

i want a BIG BIG BOX of colour pencils !

trying too hard to pout but cannot make it... hehe

suck it man ! tomorrow i got extra accounts class during the holidays...for FOUR FREAKKING HOURS !

I want to go NZX also..waiting patiently for me car and license !!! when others can drive around already. *jealous much*

oh ya by the way, i when for my undang talk alone with no friends for 6 hours ..can die of boredom man.so freakking boring man..they keep repeating the same exact thing all over again.but still i got to read my undang book ! this is the book :

xOXoXXO

misses him alot.really looking forward to go out with him and spend more time together..first time of my life being together with a guy that couldnt even meet couldnt even call couldnt even message ! but its ok im waiting patiently over here for him as always.love of my life.

my true love , my whole heart , please dont throw that away.

there is nothing left to say bout it anymore..

finally ! took picture with him again in tuition haha.


try observing my face, it looks the same in every single picture..:) how could i change it..?

he look super fair here

-__-"

don't you feel these ice cups are super gorgeous..

its in ice hotel !

ice hotels are located at quebec,canada and another one is in sweden.its super nice and gorgeous.maybe you should try to go there next time but you gotta be rich first.cause its freakking expensive living there :)

im falling......

i dont wanna fall again.

could be there to hold on to me?

what should i say now?

love beybeee..

THE REASON

the only purpose i when to world stage was not really to watch live singing band but to search for someone there hope to see him there , was kinda entire time looking around hoping up and down looking everywhere , walked everywhere to find him feeling so thirsty and dizzy but unfortunately no results of him.waited for his call from 3something p.m till 12 noon but no calls from him.was so dissapointed that i actually break down when i just walk away from my friend name Sam.everyone was having fun dancing singing but me ? im so speechless. what should i say ? what should i do ? but to ignore this........

MTV world stage !

PICTURE POSTING... i didnt even bother taking pictures of world stage cause it was damn pack and sweati all over..so damn bloody alot of people...can die man..

outfit of the day to world stage!

sweating like hell !

world stage cop at me hand.

world stage ticket

got the normal ticket but get to go in the vip place that is super near the stage...super loud music.

LOUD MUSIC = LOVE !

need pain kiLLers !

if you ever found yourself all alone,just smile everything will be fine.

will you agree that will work? just came home from mcdonald.felt so lonely after everyones gone back.was standing outside mcdonald waiting for dad for quite some time then it started to rain.its cold and everywhere is covered with raindrops.i turned my head to my left and saw a lovely couple trying to covered each other from getting wet and i turned away.looked around and saw everywhere is full of couples walking everywhere.sweetly spending time together.suddenly out of nowhere my mind has been struck by many questions wondering in my mind asking myself "where is mine?","how long more must you wait for it?","will it happen soon?" all i do was just hoping for miracle to happen.sometimes i just feel like curling up myself in a ball and roll myself under the bed and cry sadly alone.

every single time when the clock strucks to 7.10p.m he were just have to start walking away from me,faraway.ya i know what can he do right.its not what he want but he just have to go for a reason.got to deal with it.but sometimes dealing with it you will finally get fed up with it right.but what can i do to help it.but to stay at my own position as always.an hour or two being with him isnt enough and it will never be enough.seeing/meeting someone you love for just four hours a week is a unbelieveable thing to do.with this normal routine happen all over and over again will only stab your heart for millions of times.hard to even catch a breath.finally get to meet him its like a full relieve and his always my pain killer..making me feel all warm and always save being with him.but great things doesnt always come.you just gotta wait for it.

ya i totally agree that i think alot sometimes but things that i think it might actually happen.and its impossible and i mean it IMPOSSIBLE for a normal guy not to see hot pretty sexy girls.kinda worry bout it.what can i do but to close his eyes which that wont happen in a million years.just see all you want.hopefully he knows his limits.maybe he would not realise that he has already reach his limits.oh my god my brains gonna burst into a million pieces thinking bout it.

everybody wants to spend the rest of their lives with someone....

its sucks that he got to go out everytime with his friends and to somewhere he wants to be.or maybe he can sometimes or even one time try to tell his mom that he got to go out with his close friends but actually go out with his gf.but i dont think he ever do that.his gf is just being very patience for once in her life time for a guy that she really loves .all she wants is to spend a little more time with him when she is having her hard times but its hard and she got no idea how to.she couldnt even contact him.she has already tolerate with him alot but how long can she do that? everytime she have problem in mind,she just couldnt tell him because its hard to explain and if she do he will just feel guilty and sorry.so its no point for her to explain much when she knows that no differences will happen.so she rather keep it to herself and try to make it as a normal thing and try to shine her day with a bright smile on her face.pretending and hiding away from what she feels all the time. BUT NO MATTER WHAT SHE WILL ALWAYS ONLY LOVE HIM WITH ALL HER HEART AND SOUL..

my anniversary !

ever thought of getting married where or how?

• church?
• traditional wedding?
• or just a simple wedding?

or largest PUBLIC LIBRARY IN NEW YORK CITY?

kinda romantic and memorable if you get married in there.its not that bad at all .cause the library is all made up of full white marble floors and stairs.and its filled with books around you keeping you warm and nice comfortable. best wedding place ! if i could rent the whole library just for my wedding laa... :)

today is me and my baybee's anniversary !

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY BRANDON !

finally its already four months ! wow how amazing.time passes real fast without me realising.baybee made me ANNIVERSARY CUPCAKES and wrote me LOVE LETTER ! a very meaningful letter.how nice can he be. love him till bits.muakx. no pictures of it uploaded cause due to some certain reasons :) first of all it fliped up side down thanks to HIM.dunno how he put in his bag ! second of all i ate two already :) !

exams tomorrow ! its TRIALS MAN !

chocolate cupcake.

baked cupcake on thursday.was suppose to have hari karnival on saturday which is today but it was postponed to other day..damn suck !

1 august 2009:

today when to pyramid with mom shopping damn bored ! but at least not staying at home.i got to rest sometimes from studying :)

something so fucking annoying happened to me lately.damn annoyed man.sometimes guys are just so freakking fucking CHILDISH and got no brains and most important BLIND STUPID!

nobody can ever touch my phone without MY PERMISSION ! whoever touch my phone without my permission,no matter who you are i will just SLAP THE SHIT OUT OF YOU !

MKY can never in his life touch my phone.if you do, i will fucking slap you i dont care whether you bring your fucking "cool" gang come whack me, i will whack them up.like i care who you are ! PORN STAR ! you don even dare to touch me ! and PLEASEEEE dont touch me with your dirty hands, your whole body is damn dirty and gross.

NEVER FUCKING TOUCH MY PHONE !

love you forever brandon.