what now?

something surprising happened to me yesterday after school ,was really extremely happy.my boyfriend surprise me by coming to my school to see me and unfortunately to tell me something that really dissapoint me.but i forgive him obviously.at least he have the heart to come and visit me after school.which is enough to cheer my day but obviously a little side of my mind will be extremely sad after hearing what he said to me.cause ever since the day before i keep on telling and bugging my friends bout "i cant wait for 4.50 on friday".as for my close friend they will understand what is it mean.and as for my boyfriend he will feel guilty but its okay im fine.

guess what happen on friday? :

i can really feel extremely lonely for the very first time in my life man! first it was me and mey in the tuition then decided to walk over to carlos to yam cha but too bad she is going to pub with her parents(mey ditch me) so i called terence to walk over to usj9 to teman me over to carlos and sat over there feeling extremely bored with sam and 2more guys.after that sam and terence wanted to walk back to usj9,so i followed them there then terence went off to kancil (terence ditch me).then while i was standing at the mamak called nirwana,sam told me he have to go back too so means (sam ditch me too).ohh soo great.then i called my sis to fetch me and she said wait till 10.30 only pick me up and now its only 10.00p.m.great! so i were have to wait for half and hour for her with a guy name omar which is sam's friend and my old primary school friend.he waited with me for quite some time then his parents came over to fetch him (omar ditch me)... yea whole day people are leaving me to be alone and miserable.what a bad day. hopefully this will not happen again ! hate it so much...!!!!!

i really damn miss him and really do love him with all my heart.but how could i get closer to him?getting closer to him its hard but nomatter how hard or how long it would take ,my love towards him will not fade away.i can feel his warmness everywhere i go but yet his far away from me.how could i possibly get to him? how,when,where???these question seems to appear in my mind ! i'll be okay. i got to be with him so much.

you're my only one that i need,

you're the only one i want,

you're the only one i love,

your're the only one i want in my life the most,

you're the only one i wait,

you're the only one for me.

take your sweet sweet time,ill be here for you baby!

ill love you the same.

ill be here for you.