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dOwn .

2009-09-05T22:12:00.000-07:00

guess so in this world there is no such thing called CELLPHONES & PUBLIC PHONES . huh ?

yesterday when out to pyramid to celebrate TSI MINN'S birthday. finally you are 17 !

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY AH MINN !! : )

me ALDO bag !

me !

bored and not really in the mood the whole entire time in pyramid due to certain reasons !

i love you like i never see you again . i hold you like this is the last time . but what happen next ?

must this happen ?

i really do miss you .

can you please dont do this to me anymore ?

im not as strong as what you think i am .

dont wanna lose you . but you seems to be walking away from me .

could you come back to my arms ?

need you so badly , love you so so so much !

i feel like a thousand needles are in me .

but im just trying to be so strong to hold on to act that there is nothing is happening.

i seriously need you .

i cant afford to lose you !

time is not everything but trust and love is .

LOVE is a very powerful thing that you could possibly imagine .

MerDeka !

2009-08-30T08:32:00.000-07:00

when over to pyramid today last minute plan. when there with Larissa & Ignatius then meet up with Joshua , his guy friend do not know the name and Nicol from USJ12. okay ! then split up with them and Larissa and me when to do some shopping stuff.bag hunting but FAIL couldnt get any nice ones. watched IMAGINE THAT ! nice movie ! seriously... headed over to kim gary to makan . i had my pork chop with cheese baked rice ! nom nom nom . . . . !! everyone is staying for the countdown thing but un fortunately im not. wont be going to any countdown without him. i'll wait for him no matter how long it takes ( a life time ) ? nahh ! ! !

outfit of the day !

topshop !

heLLo !

bored man !

Michael Buble & Nelly Furtado - Quando Quando Quando.

( recommended song )

Tell me when will you be mine

Tell me quando quando quando

We can share a love divine

Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me

Tell me quando quando quando

You mean happiness to me

Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day

Every day seems a lifetime

Let me show you the way

To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more

Tell me quando quando quando

Say its me that you adore

And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when

Oh darling tell me when

Oh come on tell me when

Yea tell me when

sentences of the day !

IM LOYAL . . . .

me LOVE !

2009-08-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

love your style , feel confident in what you wear. never back off of your own fashion taste.just wear whatever you feel comfortable in.

FASHION is really important for every each girls and boys.

current OBSESSION !

apparel :

TOPSHOP , Miss Selfridge , Forever21 , MANGO.

heels :

ALDO , Salvatore Ferragamo , Yves Saint Laurent , Christian Louboutin , JimmyChoo , Givenchy.

bags :

PRADA , Gucci , Louis Vouitton , Dior , Fendi , Marc Jacobs , Yves Saint Laurent.

fragrance :

Ralph Lauren notorious, Flora by Gucci , Calvin Klein , Lancome magnifique , Dolce & Gabbana.

face/eyes :

Anna Sui , MAC , Shu Uemura , Bobbi Brown , Chanel.

magazines :

VOGUE , CLEO !

{ suits and boots are back. }

taken from VOGUE magazines ( me love so much ) :

versace !

Christian Siriano ( winner of project runway ) !

his design. are just so fabulous.

every couple have their routines.

i got my own same ol' routine.

my patience are growing.waiting for someone is isnt that easy as what you think but its a challenge.

I TOOK THAT CHALLENGE.

I KNOW AND IM SURE. ITS MUST BE HIM !

trying too hard !

2009-08-24T02:42:00.000-07:00

SUDDEN CRAVES ! = COLOUR PENCILS !

i want a BIG BIG BOX of colour pencils !

trying too hard to pout but cannot make it... hehe

suck it man ! tomorrow i got extra accounts class during the holidays...for FOUR FREAKKING HOURS !

I want to go NZX also..waiting patiently for me car and license !!! when others can drive around already. *jealous much*

oh ya by the way, i when for my undang talk alone with no friends for 6 hours ..can die of boredom man.so freakking boring man..they keep repeating the same exact thing all over again.but still i got to read my undang book ! this is the book :

xOXoXXO

misses him alot.really looking forward to go out with him and spend more time together..first time of my life being together with a guy that couldnt even meet couldnt even call couldnt even message ! but its ok im waiting patiently over here for him as always.love of my life.

my true love , my whole heart , please dont throw that away.

there is nothing left to say bout it anymore..

2009-08-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

finally ! took picture with him again in tuition haha.

try observing my face, it looks the same in every single picture..:) how could i change it..?

he look super fair here

-__-"

don't you feel these ice cups are super gorgeous..

its in ice hotel !

ice hotels are located at quebec,canada and another one is in sweden.its super nice and gorgeous.maybe you should try to go there next time but you gotta be rich first.cause its freakking expensive living there :)

im falling......

i dont wanna fall again.

could be there to hold on to me?

what should i say now?

love beybeee..

THE REASON

2009-08-16T01:44:00.000-07:00

the only purpose i when to world stage was not really to watch live singing band but to search for someone there hope to see him there , was kinda entire time looking around hoping up and down looking everywhere , walked everywhere to find him feeling so thirsty and dizzy but unfortunately no results of him.waited for his call from 3something p.m till 12 noon but no calls from him.was so dissapointed that i actually break down when i just walk away from my friend name Sam.everyone was having fun dancing singing but me ? im so speechless. what should i say ? what should i do ? but to ignore this........

MTV world stage !

2009-08-16T01:30:00.000-07:00

PICTURE POSTING... i didnt even bother taking pictures of world stage cause it was damn pack and sweati all over..so damn bloody alot of people...can die man..

outfit of the day to world stage!

sweating like hell !

world stage cop at me hand.

world stage ticket

got the normal ticket but get to go in the vip place that is super near the stage...super loud music.

LOUD MUSIC = LOVE !

need pain kiLLers !

2009-08-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

if you ever found yourself all alone,just smile everything will be fine.

will you agree that will work? just came home from mcdonald.felt so lonely after everyones gone back.was standing outside mcdonald waiting for dad for quite some time then it started to rain.its cold and everywhere is covered with raindrops.i turned my head to my left and saw a lovely couple trying to covered each other from getting wet and i turned away.looked around and saw everywhere is full of couples walking everywhere.sweetly spending time together.suddenly out of nowhere my mind has been struck by many questions wondering in my mind asking myself "where is mine?","how long more must you wait for it?","will it happen soon?" all i do was just hoping for miracle to happen.sometimes i just feel like curling up myself in a ball and roll myself under the bed and cry sadly alone.

every single time when the clock strucks to 7.10p.m he were just have to start walking away from me,faraway.ya i know what can he do right.its not what he want but he just have to go for a reason.got to deal with it.but sometimes dealing with it you will finally get fed up with it right.but what can i do to help it.but to stay at my own position as always.an hour or two being with him isnt enough and it will never be enough.seeing/meeting someone you love for just four hours a week is a unbelieveable thing to do.with this normal routine happen all over and over again will only stab your heart for millions of times.hard to even catch a breath.finally get to meet him its like a full relieve and his always my pain killer..making me feel all warm and always save being with him.but great things doesnt always come.you just gotta wait for it.

ya i totally agree that i think alot sometimes but things that i think it might actually happen.and its impossible and i mean it IMPOSSIBLE for a normal guy not to see hot pretty sexy girls.kinda worry bout it.what can i do but to close his eyes which that wont happen in a million years.just see all you want.hopefully he knows his limits.maybe he would not realise that he has already reach his limits.oh my god my brains gonna burst into a million pieces thinking bout it.

everybody wants to spend the rest of their lives with someone....

its sucks that he got to go out everytime with his friends and to somewhere he wants to be.or maybe he can sometimes or even one time try to tell his mom that he got to go out with his close friends but actually go out with his gf.but i dont think he ever do that.his gf is just being very patience for once in her life time for a guy that she really loves .all she wants is to spend a little more time with him when she is having her hard times but its hard and she got no idea how to.she couldnt even contact him.she has already tolerate with him alot but how long can she do that? everytime she have problem in mind,she just couldnt tell him because its hard to explain and if she do he will just feel guilty and sorry.so its no point for her to explain much when she knows that no differences will happen.so she rather keep it to herself and try to make it as a normal thing and try to shine her day with a bright smile on her face.pretending and hiding away from what she feels all the time. BUT NO MATTER WHAT SHE WILL ALWAYS ONLY LOVE HIM WITH ALL HER HEART AND SOUL..

my anniversary !

2009-08-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

ever thought of getting married where or how?

church?
traditional wedding?
or just a simple wedding?

or largest PUBLIC LIBRARY IN NEW YORK CITY?

kinda romantic and memorable if you get married in there.its not that bad at all .cause the library is all made up of full white marble floors and stairs.and its filled with books around you keeping you warm and nice comfortable. best wedding place ! if i could rent the whole library just for my wedding laa... :)

today is me and my baybee's anniversary !

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY BRANDON !

finally its already four months ! wow how amazing.time passes real fast without me realising.baybee made me ANNIVERSARY CUPCAKES and wrote me LOVE LETTER ! a very meaningful letter.how nice can he be. love him till bits.muakx. no pictures of it uploaded cause due to some certain reasons :) first of all it fliped up side down thanks to HIM.dunno how he put in his bag ! second of all i ate two already :) !

exams tomorrow ! its TRIALS MAN !

2009-08-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

chocolate cupcake.

baked cupcake on thursday.was suppose to have hari karnival on saturday which is today but it was postponed to other day..damn suck !

1 august 2009:

today when to pyramid with mom shopping damn bored ! but at least not staying at home.i got to rest sometimes from studying :)

something so fucking annoying happened to me lately.damn annoyed man.sometimes guys are just so freakking fucking CHILDISH and got no brains and most important BLIND STUPID!

nobody can ever touch my phone without MY PERMISSION ! whoever touch my phone without my permission,no matter who you are i will just SLAP THE SHIT OUT OF YOU !

MKY can never in his life touch my phone.if you do, i will fucking slap you i dont care whether you bring your fucking "cool" gang come whack me, i will whack them up.like i care who you are ! PORN STAR ! you don even dare to touch me ! and PLEASEEEE dont touch me with your dirty hands, your whole body is damn dirty and gross.

NEVER FUCKING TOUCH MY PHONE !

love you forever brandon.

2009-07-23T04:20:00.000-07:00

didnt realise my hair grew that long ady..

start to camwhore.

bored of dead straight hair.

somehow this picture looks emo but im not maybe its just bout the hair..

(will you ever fold this much of tiny little starts for someone? )

I can’t imagine right now

Standing here

Without you

To think that I tried to ignore

What I felt

What I knew

I could never

Stop this feeling

Thank you for not letting go

When I said let me go...

i'll wait for you baby !

oh my god its been a very long time since i blog again.busy studying..spm is like damn near.

saw some most bitches thing ever happen today.woah her eyes could kill any living things ! please man never be so bitchy please.you make people hate you.people might hate you till the max till they rape you,you'll never know. you know who you are and please change.you are just spoiling your own image.unless you think its so DAMN COOL then just continue what you always do la.i cant change you,you change yourself.just realise abit la !

spm is on 18 november

2009-07-12T04:42:00.000-07:00

happy 3rd month anniversary baby !

yes only 3months not that long also.but soon it will be forever.

i love you baby.

we will take picture together soon.... :)

hi !

2009-07-10T22:01:00.000-07:00

i wanna watch this movie ! :)

OBSESSED !

i think im just thinking tooo much these few days.but i just wanna have him thats all..im being very selfish.NO SHARING BOYFRIENDS !

have some limits while talking to my boyfriend !

dont make me hate you !

LET'S PLAY A LOVE GAME ! ARE YOU IN THIS GAME ?

CURRENTLY ADDICTED TO LADY GAGA-LOVE GAME !

2009-07-04T20:28:00.000-07:00

Cassie-is it you?

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
Im looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus: 2x]
Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

[chorus 2x]
Take for granted how much I care (how much I care)
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

[chorus 2x]

what now?

2009-07-03T21:56:00.000-07:00

something surprising happened to me yesterday after school ,was really extremely happy.my boyfriend surprise me by coming to my school to see me and unfortunately to tell me something that really dissapoint me.but i forgive him obviously.at least he have the heart to come and visit me after school.which is enough to cheer my day but obviously a little side of my mind will be extremely sad after hearing what he said to me.cause ever since the day before i keep on telling and bugging my friends bout "i cant wait for 4.50 on friday".as for my close friend they will understand what is it mean.and as for my boyfriend he will feel guilty but its okay im fine.

guess what happen on friday? :

i can really feel extremely lonely for the very first time in my life man! first it was me and mey in the tuition then decided to walk over to carlos to yam cha but too bad she is going to pub with her parents(mey ditch me) so i called terence to walk over to usj9 to teman me over to carlos and sat over there feeling extremely bored with sam and 2more guys.after that sam and terence wanted to walk back to usj9,so i followed them there then terence went off to kancil (terence ditch me).then while i was standing at the mamak called nirwana,sam told me he have to go back too so means (sam ditch me too).ohh soo great.then i called my sis to fetch me and she said wait till 10.30 only pick me up and now its only 10.00p.m.great! so i were have to wait for half and hour for her with a guy name omar which is sam's friend and my old primary school friend.he waited with me for quite some time then his parents came over to fetch him (omar ditch me)... yea whole day people are leaving me to be alone and miserable.what a bad day. hopefully this will not happen again ! hate it so much...!!!!!

i really damn miss him and really do love him with all my heart.but how could i get closer to him?getting closer to him its hard but nomatter how hard or how long it would take ,my love towards him will not fade away.i can feel his warmness everywhere i go but yet his far away from me.how could i possibly get to him? how,when,where???these question seems to appear in my mind ! i'll be okay. i got to be with him so much.

you're my only one that i need,

you're the only one i want,

you're the only one i love,

your're the only one i want in my life the most,

you're the only one i wait,

you're the only one for me.

take your sweet sweet time,ill be here for you baby!

ill love you the same.

ill be here for you.

2009-06-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

your lips is what i craves for,your hug is what im dying for but YOU is what im addicted to.

eyes are red and tears are shed.

how can the day be so long?

I'm so glad I found you.Even though the day went so wrong.

Let me hold you for the last time.

the truth hurts and lies worse.

say it again for me that you love me.

i hate it when anybody makes a FAKE promises to me.

2009-06-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

I miss you when you are far away. I think of you each night & day. But incase we can't be together. I'll miss you now & forever!

Time seems to crawl when you miss the one you love.

I don't know why you are so special to me? why I like you? Why I care for you? Why I always think of you? Why I loved you but one thing for sure I know that my life won't be like this without you!

"If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.

If ever things would change and your love would fade, I’d still not break the promise I made. if you let go I’ll accept and there's nothing I can do but I’ll be there and still love you.

I want to stare into your eyes and never look away,I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me it's okay, I want to kiss with a passion that only we can share, and when it all falls down I want you to be there.

i miss him so much.his finally on his way to pangkor with his friends (school trip).yeah he will be enjoying like crap over there.baby i love you alot.

sorry for not blogging for so long.cause really busy these few days.when to gym almost everyday.DETERMINATION to get HOT body....hahaha.need to tone up me body..!going to gym again tomorrow.studying for upcoming exams..freakking scary man SPM is just around the corner.*panicking*....!

there is lots of pictures taken but im just too lazy to post it up, maybe some other day laa.

all i want is him now by my side! muakx..

2009-06-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

The day I met you was the day I knew I'd found happiness.

Time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love.

You made me miss you too much!

You may be out of my sight… but never out of my mind… I Miss You!

Without you in a day makes it feel like forever!

i can’t imagine me without you.

I MISS you endlessly.

I woke up everyday thinking of you, i went through everyday with you in my head i went to sleep thinking about you…then i dreamed about you…now all i can do is miss you!

Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, stop and smile because I am thinking of you.

Say it again that you love me.

I sit and wait for you to call, time seems forever,to hear your voice would be a relief from the pain i have when i’m not with you.

I hate having pictures of you; they are constant reminders how you’re there.. And I’m just here.

i miss you…everytime your gone…i miss you…everytime i don’t have your call…i miss you….everytime and everynight your not by myside.

it may be now or never, i’ll wait for you forever.

why did you have to leave me like this?

You are the only one i love and the only one i tried to hold on to.

i tried to hate you for leaving,yet i see your face and the pain leaves....but i will never try to stop loving you.

Sometimes it hurt so much when you misses somebody that you can no longer breath…..no longer cry…..then the pain becomes familiar everyday that you just get used to it….and eventually there’s numbness…….

i try to forget you and i hurt myself, i try get away from you i hurt my soul.

my love ! (my very first photo taken with him)

black and white :)

smiley smile *

*gonna try my best to do my addmaths project......(so freakking hard laaa)

*study like hell crazy for upcoming examss..

*stress myself....!

please stay...muakx

2009-06-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

i meant everything i said!

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.

Should I smile because we are friends?
Or cry because we'll never be anything more?

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

You are everywhere to me,no matter how far you are,
cause everytime i see, you are always here with me.

You will always be my endless love.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after afew seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.
When i say i love you,i mean it.

If you cant get someone off your mind they are probably supposed to be there.

I will give you my heart until the end of time,you are all i need.

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you.
When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you.
When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.

I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear.

The moment i saw you cry,my heart stop beating.
wondering why did i do that to you,
and all he says was "just stay,dont go".

Im trying to wash the pain away from me!
everytime i close my eyes you are the only thing i can see.

i'll wait for you no matter how long it takes-BRANDON CHRISTOPHER SMITH.my love.

2009-06-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

i'll wait for you baby !

is this what i should get for all i did?

so speechless!i miss him so much!

assorted !

2009-06-14T08:59:00.000-07:00

wow feeling so exhausted these few days.and amazingly i've been hanging out most of the day with these few peoples:

LIOW MEY LING
NICOLE TANG & TAY KAI JIN

sometimes:

FANG XIN YIN
TAN YAN LING
KOH TSI MINN

hardly:

CHOONG JO YEE
LAI CHUI SHEN
TEO FEN LEIGH

yup last few days stayed over mey ling's house.some gross stuff happen..eeewww..last saturday (13/06/2009) when to the gym at true fitness! workout awhile.after that mey ling,nicole and xin yin when to the sauna and lots of FUN stuff happen and super loud! super crazyly loud till some personal trainer are complaining man...haha..then when to had BAK KUT TEH at ss14! super nice.all of over hard work of burning calories are worthless! haha..

last 12/06/2009 was me and my baby's special day! finally 2nd month of being together!

never gonna shut you out of my life.
baby i love you.
to make you mine,just stay with me.
its hard to tell myself that you are gone when i can feel that you are around me all the time.
love spending my time with you baby.
2 months and still counting and never ends!
I'm selfish 'cause I don't wanna share him with nobody not even those people that came before me.!
hold him close to feel his heart beats.
tell him,tell him that i love him so much.
loves grows.
never let him go.

current favourite phrase is:

oh just do what you want,what you want like nobodies watching you !

tomorrow having school la..and till now i still havent sleep la.so got to go sleep d..cant wait for tomorrow! cause get to see my baby.its just so hard to even meet up with him la..so every single time we meet up i just got to appriciate every single second with him..! hahaha..

Time is too slow for those who waits.I Love You... is the sweetest phrase that any heart can share; and it's the only one I feel whenever you are there. Because there are no other words that really can define that special feeling that I have just knowing you are mine.As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you.We were given: Two hands to hold,to legs to walk, two eyes to see, two ears to listen, but why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.Two hearts that beat as one.

no titLe

2009-06-10T07:37:00.000-07:00

what should i feel now? numb?

i just wanna be with him but cause of so many reasons,i just ignore and i understand him.what should i do now?when i have the chance to meet up with him i will definitely appreciate every single second.but its just that its not enough.im greedy yes! and im being extremely selfish.his mine.but,but,but,but so many buts are revolving around me im just so speechless........his just all i need...i miss you.

a yEar oLder !

2009-06-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

yeah its Tay Kai Jin's birthday today !

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TAY KAI JIN !

celebrated his birthday last night midnight with some of his friends in his house.okay not gonna elaborate more but roughly we had lots of fun la.gave him surprise in the midnight.he was freakking shock and of course happy.Nicole his girlfriend bought him cupcakes ! and their one year anniversary present which is a portrait of both of them awww so cute and super nice picture! so and yea when over to Mey's house to chill and drink.all of us Mey,Nicole,Me,Minn,Xin Yin and Ka Yuen-finally get to come out (: bought each other a 640ml beer bottle to drink and Mey's balcony.then after awhile more Kai Jin,Kai Yang and Sam came over and drank with us too.drink drink drink play play play till 4something (i guess) then the guys wanted to go back home to sleep so they when back and finally all of us felt extremely tired and just slept off till the next morning !

yup the cupcakes from Nicole to him ! ( its from Wondermilk!-super nice cupcakes )

okay time for crazyly me camwhoring pictures cause its too bored !

nicole is on the phone with KJ .

still wanna be in the picture :)

me :) - innocent !

miss him super much! what should i do now? wanting him now.but how? just wanna hear him now.could you just stay here with me?

baBY !

2009-06-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

Baby just talk with me,

Cause I want you to stay here with me.

Baby i will wait for you.

Has me up all night I can’t

fall asleep coz I keep thinking of you.

I don’t ever want you to go,

Please stay.

How can I be smiling when you're gone.

I'm yours!

I'm calling his phone up just to tell him how much,

I really love him 'cause he's everything I want,

He listens to me, cares for me so I truly believe.

I'm selfish 'cause I don't wanna share him with nobody.

So kiss me and smile for me,

Hold me like you'll never let me go.

So many times Ive played around,

I tell you now, they dont mean a thing,

Every place I go, I'll think of you.

Just wanna stick with you.

Hate that i love you so much!

The first time I saw you, I knew,

I knew I loved you 'cause my heart stopped.

The first time I kissed you I knew,

I knew I had you 'cause your heart stopped.

The first time I missed you I knew,

I knew I never wanna leave you.

Loving you.

what a daY!!

2009-06-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

pictures!

baby!

everytime i look, you're never there,and everytime i sleep,you're always there.when i close my eyes its you i can see,you're everthing i know,that makes me believe,im not alone.counting the days that pass me by.you were the one i loved,the one thing that i tried to hold on to.it seems that i cant live a day without you.it hurts to want everthing and nothing at the same time.i want what's yours and i want what's mine,i want you!i just want to get over it.tears doesnt cure things.i've tried to hold on.......muakzz!

how do i feel?

2009-05-31T03:53:00.000-07:00

today.....

yup blogging again.these few days dont feel like on9-ing plus blogging is due to some personal reasons of mine.because is really very fustrating these few days.i dont know when will this feeling fade/go away.cause i hate it so much.trying to ignore but its so hard.hopefully soon it will cure someday but time wouldnt cure that much.no matter how long ,the feeling is becoming a mark in me.just hoping that the only cure is the person i need the most now.but i truely understand why is he doing this i dont blame him.there are alot of stuff i wanted to tell him but its hard to even meet him or communicate with him or chat with him.he dont even have a phone as in aaahhhh long story.i dont really know whether it is the truth or not.but hopefully its the truth.i know he used to be a p*ayb*y.but i trying to ignore it.what should i actually feel now.seeing all my friends having boyfriends,date and hugging and kisssing!? me ? am i suppose to be someones light bulb forever? just hopefully everythings fine.i think he dont know how i feel and i really dowan him to know my feeling cause i just want him to be happy with his life plus i dowan to control him at all as long he have his limits then im fine with it..i want him to be happy being with his girlfriend cause i dowan him to complain that ohhh his girlfriends is controlling him and stuff..that sounds sucks.there is more that i wanna say and spill it out but its just aaaahhhhhhhh so geram so i gotta stop right now.

i dont wanna break down.

should i actually talk to him how i feel? but i scare after telling it will be worst la.so i rather be save than sorry..his just stuck in my mind.so hard to even put him aside.i want to but NO cant! my love towards him is too deep.really need him now.wanna hug him.

i just dont understand that we couple already and it feels like nothing.whats the whole point? i just freakking love him!

signing off-wL

title-less

2009-05-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

so extremely speechless these few days.nothing much happen to my life.just a few stuff la.minor stuff.his been haunting my mind day by day.how do i actually get him off.his stuck in my mind forever.miss him so much.wish that he knows that..

oh ya finally watched MKY's porn video in friends phone.wow it really does gross me out.what an interesting music in that video.please la try not to spoil your life like that.grow up please.firstly i thought you were the nice innocent guy i know but when everything just happened,wow your life just ended like that with bad reputation.so speechless bout you.

miss him alot.how i wish i could see him now.but its impossible.its just so hard to see him everytime.wanna talk to him on the phone but its like so torturing.wanna hold him but time passes by so fast.wanna be with him but there is so many doors to go thru.wanna chat with him but his not on9 when his on9 its a miracle for me.wanna message him but he got no phone now plus everytime its not sent.haih.its like we are together but no progression actually happening.im just waiting for the special moment to come.but no matter what happen or how long it takes i will still willingly to wait for him my love.second by second,minute by minute,hour by hour i kept lookng at my phone but nothing seems to appear from my screen :( i will just have to put those feeling far far away from my brain.just cant stop thinking bout him. GET OFF, but its hard.it leaves a scar there in my mind.really love him with all my heart.

you know that i love you huh baybiiii?

currently listening to:
insomnia-craig david

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

ranDom.

2009-05-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

randon picture of my boyfriend ! love him so much till the end of my life !

hey yup yup i know its been a long time my blog is dead.kinda busy lately cause of exams.god man im having exam for 3weeks.can die laa.today really is a sucky day for me.the only moment that i feel not sucky is when im with him.but then after that "something" just spoil me my mood!

i really felt like slaping his fucking face.go get a life stop spoiling my relationship you got yours and go enjoy stop trying to fit in my relationship life.or are you just jealous? wat the fuck.get lost freak ! you will regret for what you have done !cause if you do continue it you will totally get from me !!!! dont dare me to do stuff that i can do! cause i will totally dare to just slap your fucking face problem face! or maybe worst i might just step you kick you till you bleed!!!! dont judge me by my looks as in i may look small but you make my patients gone.i can just do whatever i want till i satisfied myself.

so stop spoiling my relationship if not i will spoil yours ! you totally dont want that to happen cause if it did,you will regret for life !!!

fuck off get a life MKY ! please man you suck to the max.and please la realise that you are so freakking gross.look yourself at the mirror.or maybe the mirror might just break or show an asshole face there.

never mess with the wrong person.i have limits to myself.i dun care who you are.no matter how big you are,you mess my life i mess yours !!! and please never dare me...

MKY sucks to the max like fuck.. !

love him so much why must the time pass so fast?can you stay here with me forever.having you by my side is warm and unforgetable.i love being in your warm arms and body.would you stay with me for long? where are you?you make me lost in your heart.really need you so badly.but i'll wait baybii...the moment i had with you really make my day.didnt want it to end that fast.you are my only hope to make me smile again.am thinking of you.come to me,you are all i need now.i wanna be with you,i wanna hold you tightly never let go.i wanna be the only one in your arms.im cold and lonely what will you do? to be only yours i pray.

-b.c.s-

signing off by me-weI LinG

bazAar !

2009-05-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

oh wow today when to bazaar in pj for the shoppaholic's den birthday bash.guess what it sucks so badly.cause nothing and really i mean it nothing catches my eyes.stupid man ! so i when off early to midvalley with mom and sister.shop shop shop over there.then i realise that midvalley is even smaller then pyramid and kinda boring.cause not much nice stuff in there.just a few.even in nichii store they dont even have the heels.the shop is freakking small.all the shop seems small.miserable midvalley!! but at least i got to buy some stuff.hehe :)

all the stuffs i bought :) not much also.

bought this in natural sources.

bought a top in MNG :)

bought panadol cold and flu in guardian.and ZA pore smoother :)

bought cupcakes!

after few hours of boredom.decided to go back already after having mcdonalds as dinner ahhah :)

oh yA before i forget,when i was walking in midvalley alone,an english man (quite cute and super tall around 20plus ) came up to me and ask me, first question:

english man: are you alone?

me: no , i come with my family.

english man: are you lonely?

me: no ! -_-"

english man:do you mind talking to me?

me: err?!

english man: can you be my friend?

me: erm????!!!!!

english man: are you single?

me: NO!! i have a boyfriend !!

english man: excuse me,oh im sorry! thank you.

me: -_-""" swt.. (walks off).

scary man!!! yup yup then when up the car and continue to camwhore!

see me arms !

even obvious ! its me muscle ! :)

i love my baby so much.i really wish he could be here with me.u are all i need now.missing you so much.your face are fading away from me.if you really want me to remember that face of yours please come and be with me now !

currently listening to utada-come back to me !

somEthing...

2009-05-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

curious to know?

the whole yesterday was studying like mad! all because of exams are coming.wow !!fustrated man.stressing out myself laaa..

finally,dad came back home from work and asked me whether wanna go shangri-la hotel to listen some talk anot?(bout some nutrition talk ) so i was like wahh finally can go out from the house to somewhere so nice and its in k.l. so,obvious i said YES to follow him :)

yup this is the nutrition stuff..

im taking this product too.kinda amazing and its tasty man.the nicest part is it low in calories and can lose weight,gain weight,maintain weight with the same exact product.for your information,its not slimming product okay! its just a healthy protein drink with less calories.its just that if for some people they want to gain weight they were have to drink 3 times a day and continue eat whatever you want.im taking it for at least 4 to 5 months already.not that i want to lose weight i was just taking it for healthy-ness.but without realising i just lose a few kg hahah.eventho i just eat whatever i want.as you all know im kinda "tham jiak" :) but for me i just drink my protein drink every early morning as in the first meal of the day then in the afternoon i just eat whatever i want :) once you drink it in the morning you will feel very full till the afternoon already.aside from that i did workout also cause its not that i take that protein so seriously i still eat whatever i want.plus its so freakking expensive!! but obviously my family is taking it seriously laa plus in my family im the smallest size and its not so important for me to lose weight :)

wanna know more go herbalife.com !

so yup as usual on the way to shangri-la hotel in k.l, i camwhore and when reach there also continue to camwhore ahhaa.

picture of me camwhoring!

on the way there.

picture of me in shangri-laa toilet ! :)

outfit of the day!

yup blur face she got there.(spoil me picture :) )

without her!

then after done camwhoring when in the grand ballroom for the talk.bla bla bla.felt a little bored then took few pictures of the super beautiful chandeliar.

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beautiful huh ! super huge..

missing him every second of my life.need him to keep me warm every second.without him i feel so cold and lonely.you make my day smile.wondering around where are you?when will you be with me?is this the question that i were have to think every single time when you are not around?no matter how long you want and seriously want me to wait ,for you i will ! love you till the end of my heart.

hey ya!!

2009-05-01T22:53:00.000-07:00

brandon smith and wei Ling....

when to pyramid yesterday walk walk shopping but nothing caught my eyes so finally this caught my eyes so decided to buy it..heheh..

yup im been attached for 20days already.loving him so much.really wish nothing serious will happen.if it does it sucks.but i trust him.missing him day by day.

for your information my friends are some attached with love of their lives already.good for them.wish you babes have a nice relationship..

am still looking forward to watch movie with my babes..exams coming laa scary..got to study already..will update soon..bye.

xoxo

love you baby till end of my live.

picturEs ! ( scouts night - SMK USJ 13 )

2009-04-27T04:48:00.000-07:00

outfit for the day.

end of piCs

borEd day.

2009-04-25T06:29:00.000-07:00

today is kinda bored.when over to sunway club to swim,gym and chill.there is nobody with me.how sad and lonely.spot a few hot guys.hehe.dunno why this few days i have no mood to blog la..maybe some other time la..took alot of pictures but lazy to post it up :)

tomorrow its scouts night ! are you guys prepared? excited? you better be.there will be loads of fun there.

i think thats all for now.

something had happen but its a small matter and trying to distract us from thinking that.
miss him so much.
how i wish i could see him every single day.
you make me addicted to you.why did you do that for :(

im attached to you my love !

end of story

finaLLy !

2009-04-18T10:50:00.000-07:00

so its been 8days my blog is dead.so today when to bazaar with some friends (nicole,meyling and yanling)is total cramp in there but their stuff is cool and nice.but cant really afford to buy.kinda running out of cash :) so i just bought one clincher.and then all of us headed to sunway pyramid.

first yanling was rushing like hell mad goin to catch her movie then nicole,may and me when over to sakae sushi to eat SUSHI ! then oh ya nicole and mey was currently obsess with a cute guy(waiter) in sakae sushi.haahh..someone actually curi-curi took picture of him hahah.all my dishes was me favourite UNAGI !! heheh i feel so tham jiak.after that we just linger around hunting for heels and dresses and end up i bought my ADIDAS shoe.yay happy me.finally! kinda no money d..im so god damn poor now.haaha. kla will update photos next post. its 2.02a.m and am still blogging.byez. and oh ya yanling had her class dinner at tgi fridays.and i saw louis wearing the shirt i bought for him hehe.he loook so good in it at least its not a waste i bought for him :)

tomorrow got econs tuition aat 2-4p.m...ahhh lazy to go lahhh...

saw him today and felt so pain in me.could you tell me why!

baby !

enD Of stOry

hapPy birThday MEY !

2009-04-11T08:28:00.000-07:00

so today went out with mey,yanling,ian and minn.did the normal routine as usual.walk here walk there.before mey reach pyramid me,yanling and minn went over to SUSHI GROOVE to eat..hehe.

mine! as usual me favourite UNAGI..

minn's fried prawn !

after that went to watch movie with mey,yanling,ian and minn.we watch "He's Just So Not Into You".its so damn nice the movie.all of you dudes and babes should watch it.its like all time favourite movie.hehe.you actually can learn something from there.to me it really actually does refers to me literally..! :)

after movie we went walking everywhere hunting for stuff to buy.and its about 6something minn went back home cause her sis birthday(tsi wey).so she left us.then ian's turn to leave us.down to 3 person now then decided to go "Bubba Gump" to have a drink and eat there.the best part is mey got her surprise by xinyin,nicole,shannon and jiayin.haha.this year mey got the most surprising birthday.happy for her.! love you lots.beeen friends with you since form1-form5 and still counting.been in the same class for straight 5years.wow!

so afterall mey's got all the stuff that she craves for.when shall it be my turn to have stuff that i want?desperately cant wait. :) okay im so lazy and tired to blog d.got to rest cause tomorrow got seafield i.u leo to attend. love my friends alot!

this is how you hurt my heart and i just got to let you go.and find my own cure for it.

end of stOry

just back off !

2009-04-08T05:13:00.000-07:00

i fucking hate backstabbers !!

please la stop backstabbing me can you.what do you get? you dun get any presents or money or hamper or food to eat okay! its just not nice okay.i know you hate me alot but please la have some limits in you la.behave yourself.STOP SPOILING MY RELATIONSHIP MIND YOU!stop telling fake things to people please.i didnt do anything bad to you okay.i didnt kill your family i didnt take your boyfriends i didnt slap you i didnt do anything evil or mean to you okay.why must you treat me like that? i help everybody as much as i can.what else do you want from me?have i did anything wrong to you?whatever new friends i have it tends to fade away all.why?ask yourself ! why must you always make me loose friends.i cant make new friends is it?i cant have boyfriends also is it.is my life la why must you bother so much.

you want what i do for you,you want i help you i help,you want i do everything for you i do,what else you want?if you want to make friends with the person i just know,make friends la you dont have to break me off with them and you get everything.please la dont be so selfish.now if i were have to make new friends i were have to hide it from the world so that no one can actually break me off from them is it?are you much happier?or are you gonna find personal spy to find out?if next time i have husband are you actually gonna come and brain wash my husband till he divorce me? fuck it la.enough with that habit of yours.you realize it yourself.you know who you are! please la realize abit.

what goes around comes around !

im a friend of yours too.

tHinKinG Of U !

2009-04-03T19:59:00.000-07:00

dear wOrld,

yup blogging again.am still thinking of you.trying my best to stop my mind.but its hard.why must you make me addicted to you?

wow alot of stuff happen these few days.feeling so extremely exhausted these few days all because of "sports Day".im like damn black already.feeling so sick.

and the worst part is my class in a "mess".everything is all up side down!hopefully everythign had settle la..no more issues please.all of us is already 17 la behave yourself.is not the right time to be childish anymore.

ive got nothing better else to blog alreadt for now.ya ya i know my blog is so extremely boring..will try to make it more interesting soon.haha

i feel my blog is kinda emo la.haha.trying to change it la.just wait.

yay next week gonna go to i.u leo for seafield d.cant wait.never been to any i.u before besides my school.haha lame me..

what are you trying to do?

end Of stOry.

feElinGs...

2009-03-29T07:10:00.000-07:00

lovely wOrld,

im feeling SAD but trying to denied it.

ok i think im not blogging for these few days ler kinda busy doing stuff lazy to elaborate.and got NO MOOD today...

every night i close my eyes to sleep,you are always in my dreams.

enD Of stOry

chOcOlate...!

2009-03-28T06:46:00.001-07:00

deaR wOrld,

today nothing special happen just when to summit with friends (meyling and a guy name kelvin).cause im kinda desperate for the movie:

watch it already and its super nice.for girls la not for guys.showing all those stuff that girls get drool with it.haha.

then im so craving for chocolate lar.need it so badly.bought toblerone.eating it now.haha..but it still doesnt satisfied me.im sure if something else is here by my side i will be so damn satisfied.but too bad that wont happen.sad again.

dark chocolate..

white chOcOlate!! i bought this :)

everytime i close my eyes you appear in me.i miss you so badly.how could you leave me like that?

eNd Of stOry

speEchless...

2009-03-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

hi wOrld,

there's nothing much to say actually.today nothing much happen just when facial with mom after school.get my face clean up.then when to tuition after that go "yam cha" with friends and camwhore and when back home.lazy to blog today ler.next time lar will be posting up more pictures.

yup done 2 of my moral kerja amal already.got to do another 2 more.and still no pictures of me faking cleaning my room and sweeping the floor and recycling..wow..what a faker.havent take..maybe will be taking tomorrow.got to finish it as soon as possible.then have to write 3more tugasan harian lar..so damn lazy lar..got to put in nilai somemore.wow!!!

done:

perkembangan diri
kekeluargaan

havent done:

alam sekitar (2)

kissable lips of yours makes me drool and drunk.love you

end Of stOry

baD daY!

2009-03-26T02:20:00.000-07:00

dear wOrld,

im so depressed !

really had a bad day today.

i will not be performing for now maybe next time la.
teacher complain bout my attire. (sleeves is always up,baju kurung did'nt button,no name tag,ankle socks)
moral kerja amal pn.umah rani lost both of my kerja amal and my pictures even my surat akuan.
got to do again kerja amal all 4 and 3more tugasan harian and print pictures..! (worst part - must hand in by 1 april and now its like 26 march)
failed a few subjects.
got tonnes of homework.
im a slow learner need to study extra more.
no money to spend already.
cant get what i want.
stupid rumours.
still single.
"no one" message me.(total silent of my phone)
cried today.

what can get more worst than that?

actually i thought smart people are suppose to think better than the stupid ones but unfortunately i've got it wrong.they rather believe the rumours than the real thing.and the worst part is they got the rumours from a stupid person that they think they are so smart in creating a story.why dont you go publish your very own book.talk whatever you want in the book if you think you are so smart.when you dont know anything please dont simply say.please dont simply create stories.if you have the ability to create so interesting story why dont you go ahead and try to get 100% for EST or maybe english.if you cant do that then stop creating stories that arent true.you are just making ashamed out of yourself. if you not sure about something come forward to me and ask me.dont have to simply assume.im not that type of person that hides the truth.i know what am i doing.you dont have to judge me.im not that dumb eventho i have failed a few subjects this doesnt mean im totally stupid and have no brains at all.i have my limits.never go beyond my limits.

thinking of you.patiently waiting for you !

end Of stOry

haPpy mE!

2009-03-25T05:52:00.000-07:00

me in hello kitty sleeping shirt :)
something is missing on my bed.
(in my bed sleeping without YOU !)

hihi wOrld,

yup was so super duper happy yesterday because of something.i dont have to elaborate that. :) you change my whole life.what will you all do if you miss a person?time pass so fast when you are doing something enjoyable and time pass so slow when you are waiting right?! hate that so.hopefully it last forever.but unfortunately some stuff just cant last that long.it all depends on the other person. wow amazingly im still SINGLE for like 1month and 2weeks already. haih.being single isnt that fun.somehow you feel so lonely and cold...what can i do besides waiting huh? okay gonna ignore bout that. sad me!

we're in love isnt it....?

end Of stOry

yAy..

2009-03-23T08:40:00.001-07:00

hi wOrld,

yup finally got back my repaired handphone of mine.

yup my phone!

so desperately want to change phone ler.i want iphone! ya i know loads of people are craving for that phone,eventho i dont like it that way but i still want to have it. :)

this is iphone durh!

i kinda want loads of stuff la anybody can get for me? please im begging you. :) (like that would help..nobody even wants to care) i want a new nike/adidas sneakers.need it so badly.a want to go shopping with a freaking rich fella that could spend whatever on me.hehe.really wish that could happen.if it really happens i really will do whatever for him only and only him... :) (im so desperate).

my whole mind is full of you and only you..

end Of stOry

wth !!

2009-03-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

hello wOrld,

kinda stress about something la..stupidity of me to stress bout that.but you cant blame on me.most of the people that are in love they feel the same too.when you miss someone you will do whatever to cure that feeling huh?! wth?! :( what should i do now? anybody can help me for now..gonna stop this feeling ler.going crazy man! trying my best to ignore my feelings. but its hard. still trying tho !

kk got to go do some english power point slide show...

you are stuck and lock in my mind forever.assumed you'd always be there.

enD Of stOry

daNcE!

2009-03-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

hie wOrld,

hey practise dance today at usj1 avenue.its a very nice place.maybe you all should go there and take a look.is really damn nice.wow today damn tired practising dance steps.gotto go for it la.cause my performance its like on 3april and now i were have to catch up everything and im a slow learner. :)

and oh ya for those who always love to assume stuff please dont.just come up straight to me and ask me the truth never simply assume stupid stuff from me please i hate that so much.you give me bad impression bout you.you are just making your reputation down.if you really wanna talk bad bout me just come straight to my face and tell me if wanna slap me just come and slap me.never talk behind me please.if really hate me come tell me i wont do anything to you la.i promise that if really wan2 slap me just slap i wont scold or hit or anything la.im not so freee to entertain those kind of stuff.

wonder if you realize,i've found somebody like you.

how can i get nearer to you now?

enD Of stOry

whAt a day!

2009-03-20T09:51:00.000-07:00

too bored!

wats up wOrld!

wow kinda bored for now.oh ya sorry for the tones of spelling mistake for last posted blog.cause kinda tired blogging that time.as long as you guys understand what i wrote can d la.hehe.today nothing much happen.morning i when shopping with mom at pyramid camwhore alot cause too free d.hehe.after shopping when to tuition at kasturi for sejarah then head over to station1 to "yam cha" with friends.chit chat gossiping bout people.. as usual la. :) thats what girls do.

p/s:for you guys(guys as in man/boy that have dick) out there!never in your life play any girls man! its not good plus when others see you they looked down on you.when you really love a girl go for it never make her feel that she have chance or NEVER make her feel so desperate bout you and all you do is ignore her.please,that is fu**ing not nice.if you dont love her tell her!so think twice before flirting with girls.they might take it seriously.and dont forget the most important thing is girls maturity level is 4years older than the guys.so they most prob will always take things seriously when the guys are just joking or playing.so not nice!

still camwhoring!

tried shirts from "forever21"

shopping!

there is more pics but lazy post it up.. :)

baby can i hug you,i miss you!

end Of stOry

gEnTing

2009-03-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

hello wOrld,

wow..today 19/03/2009 i woke up at 2.00p.m. haha.cause was kinda exhausted yesterday.

okay let me start the whole trip again.will never forget bout our "class trip" to genting.first we kinda sat bus to kl sentral then till titiwangsa then reach there kinda running up to a bus to genting.sat in the bus wow it was gross n dirty.haha.then reach there went to the counter put our luggage then have fun.bought the theme park (outdoor) play like hell queing up for 40minutes for the stupid go kart! everything was so fun.oh ya sat space shot!! with sam and kai yang.hahah sam was so freakingly scare man.im not scare and his scare keep on saying will die wan..hahaah me and kai yang was laughing man.sat on the space shot bring us up and we both was asking "sam are you ready" he was like "NO NO NO NO NO NO" and there goes "AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"....hahaah okay we sat alot of roller coaster.had tones of fun and we got free tickets to sit the flying coaster! wow damn fun.then the night was around 11.30 we are ready all girls went to the safari club.was kinda weird that i walk first then the fella let us in and later on the guys and the other girls wanted to come in but cannot hahah."evil laugh"...but i didnt really drink but mey,xinyin,nicole drank tequila shot and a samll bag of salt.dunno what is the purpose la.me and jia yin so innocensely didnt drink.but jia yin more innocense drinking her orange juice haaha so cute.everybody was so high laughing at the dance floor.we all made the dance floor rox!cause we were dancing on the centre man..!okay thats for the first night.

second night was the most fun ,kinda, not really for me!!!!!!first we linger in the first world.standing in front the haunted house that we were have to pay rm18 to get scare.but we didnt go in la its a waste of money.then the girls was kinda desperate for the flying coaster again they paid rm8 to sit again hahah desperate.cause its fun la.cant blame them!then around evening we all when back to our hotel room group in there and played DARE OR PAIN.but most of the time we all all kena dare kinda forget bout the PAIN.so everybody didnt stupid things.kinda have fun but to me not really cause i kena teruk from them..ishhhhh..not gonna elaborate bout that part.feel so bad for somebody.am gonna be 'setia' for him only in my life. :) trying to prove its not only a puppy love but the real thing! ;)

then the day we are suppose to come back to subang!! OMG it was so exhausted..!first morning the girls are still despo for the FLYING COASTER! SO THEY WHEN TO SIT IT AGAIN.then later on we walk all around again stand in front of the haunted house again saw the skeleton walking around OMG so scary.am scare okay!nicole was laughing at me. :( then we saw people eating wasabi sushi competition.and the sushi was cover with 2inch thick wasabi.damn hot man.afetr few hours we whne up the bus and go down to titiwangsa,sat monorail back to kl sentral.and guess what we wanted to sit the ktm back to subang but it was hell packed and sat bus from KL wow damn long man have to wait.try sitting a bus in KL you will die.!met up with the C classs people.kinda the bunch of usj13 school people sitting the bus.. :) it took us around 3hours to reach subang and home.wow what a trip! oh all along the trip camwhore like hell.pics dont expect from me cause me no camera.am using a stupid phone and didnt bring camera.

end of "class trip story"..

we had class dinner on 15/03/09 at BUBBA GUMP..it was fun la.kinda forget half of the story but pics was alot la but not from me.and not much from or class people went.kinda disappointed.

kk start from now i've gotto practice dance d for leo night at summit ballroom on 3april.for seafield! gonna be tired these few days practising..

its been so long that i havent seen your face!

enD Of stOry

wHat shOuld i do?

2009-03-12T01:00:00.000-07:00

hi world,

yup i know i were suppose to be blogging last few days but i did not cause was having exam.busy with exam gotto study huh! yay tomorrow is the last day of exam.cheErs **. exam was kinda hard.dont think i could score for that. kay forget bout the exam part.

this sunday i will be going to pyramid (bubba gump) to have class dinnEr !! but the whole class barely know went is the date..haha then the next day monday,we will be going to genting.hehe just to chill and hang out there.hAve fUn!!currently now im hating my phone ler im using some "cool" phone of mine.i need a new phone!anyone please buy for me..desperately need a new nice phone.hehe

there actually some small matter that im stress about ler.i wonder who knows what it is.is just that i need that person now.cause i miss him. :) i cant expect that much cause if i did later in the end i might be hurt more.so got to wait and relax while my heart is so numb and weak.

SAVE ME!

just stay with me.

eNd Of stOry

lOve rOmantic stOry Of mine.

2009-03-07T07:11:00.000-08:00

stOry telling wOrld,

this story is about a typical love story.there is this two friends,they love each other,but they are not couples.they just love each other.(dont ask me why they didnt couple kay.coz i dunno la).the girl is age 17 and the guy is age 19.they were so happy together messaging each other everyday.as tho they are couples but they are not.then one day the girl starts to think why didnt he ask for couple.after that she thought maybe its not the time yet or his not sure whether is she the right person,so she told her self that she shall wait and wait.

suddenly one day,she found out that she is suffering from a sickness and without realising she's in the hospital and is in a critical conditon.she didnt wanted to let him know.and for few days she didnt even reply his messages.and he starts to wonder is she angry of him.then for few days he feels he misses her alot that he went to her house to find her,then he ask her parents where is she then her parents told him that she is in the hospital for few days already.once he heard,his heart just sank and the tears of his just fell from his eyes to his cheek.he quickly rush to the hospital to see her.but went he reach there,the doctor told him that she is in a very critical condition.

then he rush into her room and starts to grab her hands so tight that he would not want to let her go.he starts to apologize to her saying that his sorry for what he did and all she said was its okay you dont have to say sorry baby.then he starts to cry and cry while holding her hands so tightly.she is so weak that she barely talk.suddenly,her whole body turns cold and she cant breath,cant talk and her eyes shuts slowly and he shouted and called the doctor.after a few minutes later,the doctor came out and told him that she's coma and only 20% of her waking up and if she did,she cant remember the pass.

day by day he comes to visit her,talks to her,take care of her.everyday his always there by her side holding her hands writing words on her palm using his finger.one day he wrote 'WILL YOU MARRY ME?' and suddenly her finger move,he was shocked and called the doctor and the doctor said that not to worry its normal for a coma patient to do so.and his hope just went down but he will never give up.everyday he works hard to buy for her.her favourite wedding ring that cost 10,000 plus.

after 8 years later,he still never gave up on her.he still love her with all his heart.one day while he was working,the doctor called him and told him that your girlfriend has awake.then he qiuckly rush to see her.but before he went into her room,the doctor told him again that for a coma patient,once she's awake its only a few percentage of her remembering the pass.so he have make up his mind and went in.and once he opens the door,she called 'baby?'.he was shocked and went by her side holding her hands with tears of happiness.then she starts to ask 'are you my baby?'and he said yes.her face was full of confuse-ness.and she told him that for these few years time,she feels that there are someone is always by her side telling her stories and taking care of her and keep calling her baby.but she said she cant remember how that person look like.he was sad but he never gave up of trying.then he brought her back home and let her rest for few days at home.after that,day by day he come to her house to fetch her out to all the place where they first met,first kiss,first hug and everywhere that they have good memories.day by day he kept helping her to remember things back.

suddenly one day out of a sudden,she remembers everything again.then she called him and told him 'Baby i Love You Forever'.and one night,he brought her out to a dinner at a romantic place where all the candle was light up everywhere and the surrounding was full of red roses all around the place.it was so romantic and wonderful.then suddenly he takes out from his pocket a ring box and open it and starts saying 'baby will you be mine forever and spend the rest of our life together?' and there goes 'Will You Marry Me' came out from his mouth.without thinking twice she said 'YES' and hug him,kiss him.then she askes him that 'why are you so stupid to buy the most expensive ring?' and he said 'i know that baby love this ring so i bought it just for you'.and they live happily ever after.

p/s:dont ask me why i write this.suddenly it just came out from my mind when i was thinking of someone.

will you take me to your heart?

end Of stOry

too boreD!

2009-03-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

me.

guess who? (give comment!)

(:

love him forever.

wOrds

2009-03-06T05:38:00.000-08:00

hihi world,

do you people know that some words maybe are not meant to say.you cant be a too straight forward person.not everything your family,friends,cousin,relatives,boyfriends,husband,wife or anybody la says you must believe 100%.some things just cant be differentiate between good or bad or hurtful words.and not everybody is perfect in anyway.no matter how pretty or innocent or good you are,you still not a perfect person.and everybody does mistake in their lives.i know sometimes some people might say or do the most evil or bad stuff they have their reasons and you have no rights to simply assume that she/he mean it.maybe some people mean it and some people doesnt mean it.so dont judge a person by its cover plus what they did.maybe some people feels that its the right thing that she/he wanted to do the most mean stuff.

and when you tell a person that you love them,you just got to prove it but not just say as a vocab.some people might say i love you in every message and some people might say i love you everyday face to face, ask yourself do you actually mean it?if you mean it then its good if you dont, stop the habit.i know and everybody else know that whenever someone hurt someone elses feelings it wont cure no matter how long it takes cause theres surely a scar there in your heart right.so before you wanna hurt someone better think twice before anything happens.and the best is NEVER hurt anyones feeling cause it will haunt you for the rest of your life and forever you will feel so extremely guilty.most people already have a scar in their heart its just that the scar is smaller or bigger it depends.once a heart is broken into many pieces,it can never be fix or attach into the same exact shape.heart is not as simple as you think.

will you be with me forever?

end Of stOry

wILL U let me loVe yOu ?

2009-03-04T04:52:00.000-08:00

love world,

im kinda confuse over something stupid.someone help me!! :( i think for now i kinda speechless for eveything.dont really know what to blog today.maybe some other time la.just have to study for now.tomorrow i got exam ler and now im blogging. me photos! :)

me promoting for "lurvE".

yup actually "lurve" is nicer than the normal twisties. (: you people should try.

would you love me?

end of story

iloveyOu

2009-03-03T02:40:00.000-08:00

hello world,

wow is single that sad?i've been wondering for almost 3weeks whether is single really that fun?to me i dont think so.but obviously there is something good about couple and good about single right.but currently im single so to me as usual la no different still the same.am still waiting for the right person to ask me for couple/married (: i've found the perfect person for me but will he ask?its okay i shall wait till the happiest moment happen soon.guess so.

what a nice romantic moment.

can i have this moment with someone i love?

will he accept me?

end of story

fyi

2009-03-01T23:07:00.000-08:00

yo world,

sorry for not blogging for quite some time.cause there something quite serious happen to me lately and my grandfather has just passed away on monday(23/02/09 - 5.30a.m) the funeral was held in penang for a week.so,not into the mood to blog these few days.and i promise that i will be updating my blog almost everyday start from now.plus my exam is like this coming thursday.and i barely study wow so amazing huh.must at least get 5credit for spm ler..how??

oh ya when i was in penang for a week,i found out that there is education fair in penang.so i have decided to go education fair with my sister.so when there and do some research bout my future course (what im taking next time la).and i might be going to either limkokwing or inti guess so. =) cant go for raffles university cause the tuition fees is so WOW compared to the others.but as you all know that raffles is the best fashion uni so it cant be that cheap right..? so you all know that im quite poor huh so have to go for the cheaper uni hehe.but to enter any universities i need to get at least 5credits ler.to me is kinda hard la please la dont compared me and the smart ones. (= i think thats all i can blog now cause im blogging in my friend's house so kinda no idea what to blog.at night around 10something i will be posting up another blog post again.but dont expect so much kay if im tired then the next day only i will blog la hehe.

end of story for noW

happY.

2009-02-22T00:58:00.000-08:00

hi hi world,

yesterday was kinda my happiest day.wow! haha.have i actually found the one that i actually lurve?yes i think i did.and i hope it could be him forever.ok you guys dont have to know much about that hehe.

aahhh exam coming (first term exam).now is all about study study study.study till my head burst.hehe.cause im not the smart one.currently i have addmaths,accounts,econs and sejarah tuition.almost the whole weekdays is occupied with my tight schedule.wahh so damn tiring.kinda tired to blog will be updating really soon.byez

eNd of stOry

do goOd gEt baD!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-17T06:22:00.000-08:00

dear world,

sorry for not blogging yesterday cause was too tired plus lazy i can even sleep in front of my tuition teacher how embarrasing!hehe.okay ignore bout that.and something really F me off happen yesterday.guess what..! okay the conversation between me and "somebody":

"somebody":why wake up so early de?no college meh?love you xD.

another message by "somebody": sorry send wrong message.lol.

wow first impression i wanted to send back is f**k off man.if you really so 'clumsy' that can send wrong message everytime.i shall give you my sweet and best advise that you shall DELETE my number and you will never in your life send wrong message already.isnt that easy?so if anybody read this message and they want to take my advise its good you wanna know why?this will reduce the amoint of people f**cking people all around the world.thank you for your cooperation.

kinda feel exhausted these few days due to the weather plus homeworks plus tuition..now almost everyday i have tuition OMG no time to rest.i even have very huge eye bags. :( today in the afternon guess what happen.?something stupidity of me just happen.just now my mom and i heard puppies yelling for help..haha then both of us try to save the puppies out from the 'longkang' outside my house.and i didnt know that im so smart that i forgot to bring gloves along and while carry the puppies up from the 'longkang',one of the puppy bite me.. :( bite till bleed.im just trying to help.if not confirm the puppies will die in the 'longkang' la.yor! (stupid puppy)

oh ya on 16 of february during school time,there is this two school prefect come into my class asking for "jaclyn lim".and OMG i feel so embarras la. and guess what they gave me?

someone bought for me again.the same person who gave me rose and other stuff.

i ate it and its nice.one of my friend (CJY) ate my toppings.(damn tham jiak). :)

before i sign off there something for all of you to understand me.using song lyrics to explain as usual la. ;)

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I let down my guard, drop my defences, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I've found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them all over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily,

I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

I bruise easily
I bruise easily

enD of mE stOry

hapPy mE on vaLentInes Day!!

2009-02-14T20:14:00.000-08:00

hey hey world,

first of all,sorry for not blogging this few days cause was away from home.stayed in my friend's house(MEY LING).

oh ya yesterday was valentines day!did you guys have fun out there with ur loved ones?please say yes...! hehe.wow yesterday in pyramid was so amazing man..my friends's skating coach got married at the skating rink!wow isnt it.he practically booked the whole skating rink for that event wow huh! so damn romantic ever.but guess what no dinner la just giving speech and cut the cake.dont expect them to eat at the skating rink huh?

yesterday i did have fun alot thanks to all of my lovely friends.watch movie and did the normal routine.hehe.firstly mey and me went to Sakae Sushi and eat and later on there comes Ho Woei Hao with a plastic bag for me and guess whats inside?something that im wanting it for all these years and this is my first time got it..sad huh.but at least im happy with it.let me show you what is it..

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hand made cookies (the top part is all love shape cookies and the below is my name "JACLYN LIM" )

a rose and a box of hand made brownies.

close up of the rose.

yup this is my first time i got a rose.eventhough is only 1 but its ok.better than nothing.hehe.wow the whole pyramid yesterday was full of couple that are holding hands kissing and hugging wow..what i do?i just stare and look at them haha.

i really wish that i could have my wedding at somewhere that have lots of lots of snow everywhere.wow ya its like a fairy tale but its ok i shall continue dreaming till i get it ..hehe ya as usual tomorrow is a schooling day "yay"!and tomorrow is my friend's birthday (YANLING). what should all of us do for her?tell me!

kay end of sTory

wHat abOut nOw ?

2009-02-12T05:34:00.001-08:00

still confuse?

lOve stOry lyrics - Rain (english version)

Oh Baby there's something's that I have to tell you bout
Can't hold it in my heart
All this pain is breakin' me down
Thought I found my one true love
Couldn't show you how I feel
I was stupid baby my pride wouldn't let me be real

I'm asking for one more chance
Didn't know where you stand or
What your feelings demanded from me

I pleaded your wouldn't pass
You left me out in the rain
when you just walked away

This song is a story of a true tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do

But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be

My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

We were so much in love
Tell me how could you forget
Wish you were here with me but

Memories are all I have left
It seems the promises
that you made to me were nothing
And you smile girl but I see your hurt within

I'm asking for one more chance
Baby give me your hand
So we can both understand this love
I pleaded your love wouldn't pass
all the pieces of my soul
want to live in your heart

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me
We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do
But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you baby, I still love you

Gotta close the door
Just like you did before
See my heart is broken
Baby I can't do it no more

Even though it hurts
I'll make a brand new start
And lay the rest all the moments
That played with my heart

But just before I do
I gotta let you know that
No man will love you more
So baby never forget

Listen, I'm without you
All I know is right now
I love, I'll always love you

This is the story of a true love tragedy
I gave up my heart
I tried to give you all of me

We've come to the ending somehow
I don't know what to do
But I don't wanna forget now
I love you baby, I still love you

This is the sound of honesty
I gave up my heart
I tried to be all I could be
My heart gonna wait forever
I'm still holding on to
All of our moments together
I love you , I will always love you, yeah

this song actually does reminds of me alittle.thats its y i just post it up for you all to understand how i feel.cause what ever that happen to me lately cant/hard to be explain.

2more days tO Valentines Days!

2009-02-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

whats up worLd,

guess that those who are single just have to celebrate S.A.D huh? (S.A.D = Single Awareness Day).

i feel so lifeless.sitting alone by the beach looking at the sunset alone.so sad right.just got to move on.nothing is impossible.okays ignore bout that.try not to feel sad that others of your friends have boyfriends to celebrate with,think positive and celebrate with your single friends or family.this will help.

i really wish to have this la.take note anyone so that you guys can buy for me..hehe

and of course the ORIGINAL ones.

i also want a bouquet of flowers if possible haha but i was wonrdering who will buy for me le.?there is so many things that i want but no one can buy for me..how sad.

oh ya there is one best place for those married couples to go on a honeymoon.

bora-bora island!!

the best beach ever.the most expensive vacation.wow!!k till here then.tommorrow will be blogging again cause now dont really have stuff to talk about.

me in PINK!

me in YELLOW!

p/s: try to drop me a comment ya?! at least say something.

END OF sTOrY

i need someone!!!

2009-02-10T04:26:00.000-08:00

today i wont be blogging anything cause im DAMN SAD thanks to someone.dont know whats his problem!!did i do anything wrong? what the fuck!!! didnt mean to say that but in me i really feel so weak that i could hardly breath.need someone.since somebody wouldnt want to hear what i say nor answer me so i think i should give him time to think and will not disturb him till he makes up his mind.freaking confuse.

please dont ever in your life make someone's life hanging.

lOvE !!

2009-02-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

hi world,

wow where am i gonna start?today is a very weird and happy and fustrating and sad and angry day.all combine together.you know whenever some of you people are single just appreciate whoever that love you or your secret admire and for those are not single please and please do appreciate what you have and make sure everything you do with him you feel happy and confident bout yourself and always be yourself whenever you are with your love ones.just learn that stuff today from someone.eventhough that someone is single he might know what is happening out there and all thanks to him.do you guys know that whenever you have a girlfriend or a wife you just have to really UNDERSTAND whats she's thinking if not things will get worse sometimes.make sure you understand her before doing anything that you dont know.loving a person is not only the looks or the body is how she/him treat you or his/her attitude.but of course is kinda obvious that nowadays people wont ever looks girl/guy by its attitude anymore.so its kinda sad for those girls/guys who are not so good looking.those people just have to wait till the fate has arrive tho.can we actually live without LOVE??

whoever feels very confused or tired with their relationship,you should give each other time to think or do something that can actually make both of you stays together forever.in a relationship life,there will be ups and downs for you guys.you just have to be patient and get over it.think of something that makes you relax by seeing something cute or views that make you feels calm and relax or maybe get a drink with your friends will do.let me show you people something that makes you all drool....hehe

isnt cute.wanna hug?

so cute huh?

so for you couples out there,you all should love each other appreciate what your partners do for you never to ask too much or dont always expect so much from your him/her.what they give or do for you sincerely just appreciate with all your heart.

eNd of sTorY
wL

-loVe you-

faShiOnS !

2009-02-07T01:31:00.000-08:00

hie world,

do you people realise that nowadays anywhere you can find people who are struggling how to dress properly?kinda like fashion disaster out there huh!i bet all girls no matter young girls,teenagers,adult women or old of course they wan to look their best before going out from the house right.and some people might say that going into fashion line is hard cause no job right.but doesnt mean so.theres alot of things to prove for example if you are talented i bet people will look up on you or your brand depending how you handle your talents.dont tell me in this whole world not even a lady buy your design?if do so means i dont think you are suitable for this course tho.i really wish to go to a fashion week in paris la.well dont think it could happen now.its ok.so wanna show you people something.and i bet all girls will love this.

wedding dreses from vera wang's studio!vera wang's gownnew york's fashion week

valentino's fashion week

wow how i wish i could own one of her dress.they gorgeous dress.very cute dress moreover extremely expensive.hehe.if whoever can buy me 10dress of vera wang,10valentino and 10coco chanel i will straight away marry that fella no matter who.hehe.cause i know nobody could afford that besides millionaire la.and i really wish that i could be a very successful designer i want people adore my dress and my designs.waliao right.okay i dont expect that much la just want everything to be successful.so i could own this.

jimmychoo

prada

versace

DKNY

louisvouitton

i really wish i could own more than 100pairs of heels.im sure girls love this.girls cant survive without a pair of heels la.heels are very important for girls hehe.ME LOVE HEELS.agree with me girls? ;)

cocochanel evening dress(its so CUTE) me want..!

end of story

-wL-

vaLentiNes daY are cominG !!

2009-02-06T01:12:00.000-08:00

hello world,

for guys please take note.valentines day are coming you should know what to do.right?get your girl what they LIKE.some girls might not like the same stuff as other girls like but im sure that all girl/most of the girls LOVE roses..!

and guess what guys?
99 roses = $169 =RM600+

1 rose = $1-$5 =RM 3.5 to RM 10+

if your girls are really bored about red roses there are also blue roses.wow amazing right.here is a pic of it.

so cute and beautiful right.

do you know that if you guys want to buy these blue roses,it does not sell in Malaysia.it must be imported from overseas(got no idea where to get-dun ask me).valentines day is went all couple get together and celebrate.what girls really like actually?for all of you guys out there, if possible try to be free on that day to be with your love ones.do you actually want to see your love one alone at home doing nothing but study or watching tv or being someones else light bulb? or MAYBE goin out with other guys?i don't think so you guys want that to happen right! so do your part.valentines day is on every 14 February.do you know that confess to someone you love on valentines day is the best day?do not to be afraid to confess the one you love face to face.if you do so i can comfirm that she will be so touch.i know all girls are hoping that their boyfriends actually ask them face to ace but nowaday guys are abit chicken out to do something like that.because they think that what if they have been rejected,they will have no face to see anyone at all so they rather be safe then sorry.but guys,try your best to do so, brave yourself.oh ya wanna see something real cute?

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ice rose cubes

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